there are benefits to knowing what something means without having it spelled out for you. and it's nice being able to accurately predict behaviors and responses based on personal experience, and on having interacted with a multiplicity of personalities that essentially amount to the same basic human characteristics...it's nice knowing yourself too--your threshold of emotions, [...]
facebook questions
a relative on facebook asked:If you were to depart (die) this earth today what would they say about your life? Would it differ from what you would want them to say? If so how and why would it differ? I am just curious.i answered:if i were to die today, it would probably be said that [...]
letter to my brother
knowing the truth is good, but knowing the self is better. i realize that - as much as i want to know the truth all the time, i realize that knowing the self, and the fluctuations of the self, the up and down syndrome, the hormonal conflicts, the mental deficits, custom made blues, manic joys, [...]
wretched
i wonder if i'm tired of women. (who wonders what they wonder?) i mean. i know a lot of them. enough of them. enough for me. enough for anybody. and yet...we are a fascinating bunch. as well as we are maddening. myself included. myself definitely, included. and so what? men are a special breed too. [...]
dead lines
still adjusting to this rather desk life, of sudden/slow weight gain, complacency lurking around every dark corner, donuts, co-workers' lives, and an age i've settled into... turns out my memory is as bad as i remember it.
Collect
“You have a collect call from— “Ju-Ju,” an inmate at Columbia Correctional Institution. To accept charges, press… one.”
white raisins in the sun
i realize now - i can't be the only one - there must be others who love children so much that they support abortion. ~ well. a revolutionary road (rv rd) it is i walk. i hope. i strongly advised my man (i'm so done saying boyfriend) to watch rv rd tonight. i had no [...]
oh morosity!
i wonder if people battle with themselves as much as i do. i go back and forth and around in circles so frequently that i exhaust myself and then require long periods of sleep or inactivity. or both. i justify excessive sleep by working 30 hours or so per week, but really by being away [...]
what it is i think needs doing
i get the feeling that i'm saying the same thing over and over here. and that's ok with me. for one, my memory is slipping. i repeat things. jumble words. need to see things to see them, need to remind myself of certain things all the time. so maybe i'll just write this entry over [...]
my own brand of porn
if sex is man's way of getting revenge on the world, then it is woman's way of controlling it. if she is wise... but this is purely speculation. i suppose many a woman has had great sex, brought many a man to his knees, and still flailed about in her personal affairs, losing sight of [...]
Nonfiction Woman 