wtf

i feel like a straight up loser now. this time last year–and i mean down to the day–i said i wanted the same shit i want now, and at the same time i wanted it before. come spring, blah, blah, blah. WTF!? i don’t have it. i want the same shit at the same time, this year. but why didn’t i get it last year? i feel like shit. i had an inkling that that sort of thing might happen in life, hell, in my life, but like this? so soon? has this happened before? do i ever accomplish anything? what the fuck? something’s gotta give. something’s gotta. fucking. give. this blizzard threw off my flow a little bit, not to mention, the planets are lining up pret ty interestingly this february. egypt is losing fucking control of itself and it’s growing increasingly difficult to watch with mubarak’s supporters coming out so hard and dirty after all these days of peaceful protest. i have no idea what’s in store, and i feel like i’m hanging out on a limb with my own shit. why won’t things ever stabilize? it’s all off balance. like a pimp walk. oh, and i have an interview monday. oy.