Month: November 2010

i tell myself to keep writing, to keep recording the feelings and thoughts and events that have come to surround me and my father's death. so much of this is surreal though. i know it and understand that the old man has gone on, that he was tired, it was *his time* and i get [...]

my father died 17 days ago and i feel guilty for feeling normal for whole stretches of time. hours. days. whole minutes and half hours with just thoughts but no pain. what is this strange mourning? have i never grieved? why am i so puzzled, listless, dull and confused? the first 10 days, it was [...]