Sometimes I drink too much.
my summer continues to unfold nicely. i mean, it's nice that i'm alive. the sun is shining. i'm not sick. i got new carpet. my apartment is pleasant. no one is shooting through the windows. i'm sitting on the couch, mid-day, enjoying some pizza and a breeze. so that's nice. and, things continue to develop [...]
my brother and i just wrapped up a surprise collect call. he never calls in the middle of the day. and i'm never unemployed, so bam. there we are. happy. at the beginning of the call, i asked what's up with his voice. he sounded kind of heavy today. like he'd been in isolation or [...]
i received these words from my cousin:"It just occurred to me that you’re most like God the Creator when your creative juices are flowing. Therein lies your power to create prosperity. Not only am I proud of you...I also believe in you."funny. i doubt she knows how ambivalent i am about the concept of God.(1) [...]
today was extraordinarily dull. weather- and life-wise. quietly oppressive. main thing on my mind these days is moving on, so i gathered up the man and child and keys to my former office building. we went in with reusable grocery bags and proceeded to remove all traces of me. (...) i tried to rush my [...]
The first thing I noticed when I woke up this morning was the temperature. The bedding felt soft and just right on my bare skin, but the air was warmer than last night. I noticed birds were chirping and the sun was bright behind my dark shade. I could see light around the edges of [...]
day 2...thank goodness the weather is nice. being unemployed in chicago in the winter could make one suicidal. today, as i walked the sunny streets of obamahood, a little self-pity and bitterness simmered. i sent negative text messages to friends such as, "haiku for job loss/i didn't see it coming/guess i'll make some art," and [...]
i go from writing day 1 without facebook to day 1 without a job... who knew that tiny leaf i turned over the other day might precede the turning of the biggest leaf i'd have to fuck with in the last few years. this is my first layoff post-mfa. that changes things a little, that [...]
well, boss man must have woken up this morning knowing he had to fire me today. he sent me an email at 6:47am asking if i could come to a meeting in his office at 1pm. sure, boss man, i replied. but can you tell a nigga what the nature of this meeting is? (sorry [...]
she looks at herself in any reflection she sees: bus or car or store windows, her computer screen put to sleep, and at night, as a passenger, she looks out of her window, looking at and seeing through herself. she remembers when she was a little girl, her mother's passenger, saddened by her life in [...]
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